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I Love You Lord!, Jacqueline Ai-Sun Siow

About a year and a half ago, the Lord brought me to the Full-Time Training in Anaheim. First, He revealed His Body to me (Ephesians 1:22-23). Then He let me know the importance of fellowship in the Body (1 John 1:3). At first I just wanted to come for one term, but after I tasted the Lord (Psalm 119:103), I changed my mind. Actually, all of these things were from the Lord. So I prayed and fellowshipped with Him as well as with the members of the Body. Then in the middle of this term I got baptized and consecrated myself again to the Lord. At that moment, I realized that this was the Lord calling me to stay in the Training. I was struggling with the Lord, but eventually after all the prayer and fellowship I found peace to stay in the Training.

In my second term, the Lord revealed two more things to me: (1) His death and (2) His resurrection power. During this term I had a lot of environmental dealings. However, the Lord was always with me and supplied me. Second Corinthians 3:16 says, “Whenever their heart turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away.” During this term the Lord showed me that I really need to turn to Him because I am so veiled by worldly concepts and thoughts. Because of these sufferings and environmental dealing, I felt that I had been cheated by the Lord to remain in the Training. My faith was shaken. I started to ask myself, “Why am I here? What am I doing here?” I finally prayed, “Lord, I give up. I surrender.” I even experienced Galatians 2:20a, “I am crucified with Christ, and it is no longer I who live, but it is Christ who lives in me.” I realized that the Lord used all my environments to expose me and to break my natural man (Matthew 16:23-24). Praise the Lord for what He has done so that His divine life could come out! This life is the resurrection life!

And now I am in my third term. I am experiencing Him as the living, subjective, and resurrected God in me. I realize that I can't deny Him because He loves me so much. Today, I don't need to do anything. I just need to come forward and enjoy this grace (Hebrews 4:16)! The Lord is so faithful and merciful that He brought me back term by term, so that I could be perfected and be useful to Him in the future. Praise the Lord!

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